an evening like no other..

This was my first time I got on the move after such a long, long time. Well, I went to the playground to play badminton and jogged. Really missed those times during PJ when I have to run and exercise! Honestly speaking, I don't adore the outdoor games when i was in school, but I am so surprised that i am now.

So, my dad, sis, bro and I went. Had a great time smashing the shuttlecock although we (my sis and I) had to bear with the wind which blowed in random directions. My brother, unfortunately can't enjoy being all sweaty as he had hurt his knee, so he just sat and watched us play. It's amazing to get all the excess water out from the body which eventually soaked our shirts. My arm was aching after quite some time so we planned to stop. I suggested jogging around the neighbourhood. Not exactly jogging, but it's something like scout's pace where we had to run and walk alternately. This way, we won't tire ourselves too soon.

I am not the kind who has high stamina so I gave up after running for like....10 minutes? However, I could see that my sis still had the energy to go on. Wow, she really is fitter than me. But she didn't continue because of me. Haha. That's because no one's going to accompany her further.

Reached home at 6.30 pm and Saffy was already at the gate, demanding for her dinner. She put her paw into the empty bowl, prompting me to get her food. How cute! But I acted blur and she kept on jumping on me in desperation. Haha.

Might be going for another time maybe next week. No, most probably. Now that I have nothing to do, I think I should exercise to remove those amount of fats I am gaining every day.

LOL..

yeah. i have nothing to say. so, this is it..laugh, people, LAUGH!!

i watched till my eyes ache!

can you believe it? i have watched 3 korean dramas since 1st january till now..which means i only took a fortnight..my fair lady, glass shoes and autumn in my heart..all together, there are 20+32+18=70 episodes! will watch more after this..hope i won't be blind..

the current state of my eyes

photos of the casts from wonderful life..

below are the people who made wonderful life-korean drama, a success..have fun looking at the cute girl below..

having perang dingin?

kim jae-won and eugene

han shin bi

little shin bi again with her angelic smile

happy birthday!

convent is 99 years old today..the grand old lady is still standing tall and mighty with new clothes on this year..yeah..they have repainted the doors and the walls....again...the front section of the wall has been painted a slightly darker brown...no longer peach..

apparently there's a hi-tea in school today but i won't be going..financial is the factor that is getting in the way..

fourth day of 2006..

i am getting used to cooking now..the menu for the day...
SWEET AND SOUR FISH!!

honestly speaking, it really tested my patience as i must make sure i flipped the fish carefully so that the skin wouldn't come off..or else..the fish will be uhm..naked..

one thing i realise about blogging is that sad and gloomy posts catch more attention than happy and cheerful ones..

today is the fourth day of 2006..soon..it'll be result day..i must seriously treasure my time at home before going back to school..enjoy llife to the fullest, that's what i am doing and will continue for the next few months..dinner's ready so i'll stop for the day..

lousy..

wouldn't life be great if we don't have to worry about things? just things..something is bothering my mind but i am not quite sure what it is..i think i am going psycho..that's one good way to put it..even when it seems that everything is absolutely okay, it isn't..had you ever had that feeling that what we did and accomplished are not good enough? well, i am feelling that way..just hope that tomorrow will be a better day..every time i go to sleep, i think about things that had happened and about to happen..this is one of my lousiest posts written on a wasted day..

events.

there goes another year..christmas is over..the celebration at church was great with the complete decoration of christmas tree, snowflakes, etc...new year's approaching and no plans just yet..maybe i'll go to sarah's party..

the other day i went to watch king kong with joanna and kimberly..the movie was not bad..as it was a 3-hour show, i can't really remember the details of the story well now..anyway, there was this kid who kept on kicking my seat..another moment, she put her head i between jo's seat and mine, making a gurgling sound..it was a bit distracting though but i could understand that maybe she became restless after such a long time staying put without being able to move around..the best scene of the show? well, i like it when king kong ran on the street with all the toy cars moving about..the graphic's real good..by the way, narnia's still good..can't wait for the next episode to be out..prince caspian..

dull day..

woke up at 10 something this morning and yet i am still feeling sleepy..you know the thrill i thought i would have after spm is not here just yet..maybe it's too soon for it to arrive..it's on its way..well as a matter of fact, i used to think that the holidays after the exam will be fabulous..but it's not what i had expected..at least i'll be trying out a new recipe from books tomorrow..cooking will be fun i guess..

a sigh of relief..

a dog came into my house today..a stray dog..i was shocked when he went near my puppy which was in the cage then..it was really lucky i managed to shoo him away..and now, i am worried whether he will come back again..the funny thing was, saffy only started barking when i started shouting at the dog to get him out of the compound..lol..

spm will officially say farewell to me tomorrow..or rather i am the one saying goodbye to it..so glad that it's FINALLY over..change of plans..not going to work during the holidays..maybe watch movies and laze around at home..or spend more time catching lice from saffy..lolz..

will be going to malacca on the 8th so this will be my very first trip after spm without having the guilt of not studying anymore..i can enjoy myself to the fullest for once..

swallow or flush?

the other day my sister came out with this word 'flush' to replace the word 'swallow' down your throat..

"flush it down your throat."

i nearly choked on the fishball i was about to swallow so i told her this..

"so do you say swallow it down when you got to the toilet?"

can you just imagine..

when i was young-saffy again..

saffy..

ain't i photogenic?

i'm dozing off..

ouch! my head is stuck..

can anyone out there tickle me, please?

when is my rice coming??

plans for the holidays..

spm's not even started and i am already making plans for the holidays..shatirah had asked me to go to genting and malacca with a few other friends but i turned it down..why? i wanted to go but i just don't have the courage to ask dad..i know he won't allow me to go for trips with friends without the supervision from adults..

i guess i just have to plan simple hang-outs with friends not across the ipoh border, like jusco and parade? he will definitely allow that, i know..

or maybe just find a part-time job to fill up the excessive amount of time i have at home and get a course or something?

maybe this is not the right time to plan as i haven't even make plans to score in spm..i still want more miracles to happen to help me get through the exam comfortably..

a day trip to midvalley..

class party was yesterday but i couldn't make it so i didn't get to enjoy the food and all..anyway, i had a great time shopping at midvalley..

-my mom bought a red collar for saffy (just in case you 've got no idea who saffy is, she's my puppy)

-a cat from pet's wonderland scratched my dad's finger till it bled

-went hunting for shoes at various shop lots and found two lovely pairs (not for myself though..i think i'll search for mine at the night market;)..)

-ate laksa (my favourite)..we managed to find a place to sit as it's the fasting month..

-strolling and strolling.....and.......strolling....

-mom bought me a hairclip from evita (green colour of course)

we were there for i think about 5 to 6 hours..then we went to the airport and had dinner at kfc...the variety bucket...yummy..(at least i still got to eat kfc in kl when all my friends are enjoying kfc in ipoh)

what? am i dreaming?

yay!! time to rejoice as trial is over..i got back three subjects so far and thank God that the results weren't too bad..i don't know about science subjects though..not too high hopes to score any A's for those..anyway, teacher added one mark for my english paper which came as a surprise as she will never give extra marks for borderline cases like mine..

"how much did you get for mid-year?"

"i think it's 81.."

"i am going to give you another mark because you deserved it....."

(what?? did i hear wrongly?)

well, it's for a real! haha..now i got a better result for english!

i just hope more miracles will happen after this..

relieved but curious..

finally physics is over and it's time to bury myself in chemistry..can't wait to get it over and done with..now that trial is almost over which is much to my relief but another feeling is sinking in..the i-don't-want-to-get-back-results feeling is here once again but at the same time i am curious..i want to know the results but i don't want to get it..that's weird and i know it..

i just hate it when i have to go to school on a saturday..

cold brain cells..

i don't know what i am doing here since i am supposed to go to bed now..i've had the best weather yesterday..such a cool day to sleep in..however, the temperature increased this afternoon and the cool sort of feeling i felt yesterday or rather early this morning vanished..biology managed to get inside my brain better..now i know the trick..if you want to remember your facts and the weather is warm, just stick your head into the refrigerator for a moment or two..cold brain cells absorb better..this is proven this morning when i was getting through biology..try it and tell me whether it works because the temperature was fine this morning and i didn't get the chance to try the refrigerator..

soon, i have to say goodbye..

it's now a few minutes past 12 of 3 september..i couldn't believe that i'll be sitting for spm trial exam in two days' time..time is just moving unbelieveably and mysteriously fast..too fast the speed which i dislike..it's just funny that i used to think that i want to be out of school as soon as possible when i first came to secondary, but when my life in high school is about to end, there are some things that make me dread the moment to step out permanently from school..

i'll miss life buying food from the canteen, the moments i shared with a bunch of crazy and fun-loving friends..and of course, the jokes cracked during the dull moments in our beloved history teacher's class (note: parts of the jokes were about her but she's just too obsessed in 'teaching'..well, she didn't really teach as i didn't understand a single thing she said..not bothered to listen though)..maybe i'll be missing the teachers (not her, mind you! if you know who i meant..you should know anyway)..signing off here as fiona's going to experience spm in dreamland..(~_~)

a trip to bukit merah..

i should have posted this earlier but i just couldn't find the time..now that i have the chance, i've put up some pictures taken on that day..it's a family day on the 16th july..

ducks!! quack! quack!

raining umbrella..

a fine day without haze..

this is so fun!

from left: dad, me and sis

another spectacular view..

the view of waterpark from the chair lift..

my sister and i on the fake chair lift..

hazy and not cloudy..

no one has expected that the haze will be here again after the 1997 one..well, at least we don't have to wear masks in ipoh just yet..however, we can't be sure we don't have to wear later as the AP index is getting higher..yet the people still keep themselves outdoors just like usual despite being warned by the media..below are the evidence i snapped while strolling at the night market (i haven't been staying indoors too;P)..

the 'new' scenery at my neighbourhood..

people staying outdoors despite the hazy weather..

the crowd at 'pasar malam'..

dreaded..

it's exactly a month before i have to enter the hall with the tensed atmosphere and get myself seated on the not so comfortable plastic chair and start writing...! writing about stuff i've learnt in school and at the same time squeezing all the juices out of my brain until it's really dry..that's when i'll give up writing and leave the answer sheet blank and attempt to doze off into dreamland where i had wonderful dreams about scoring a string of A's for spm......

but hey! i've got to wake up! dreams may be beautiful but i mustn't get carried away..i must be practical..the cert won't drop down from the sky just like that..i will have to earn it with my malfunctioning brain..seriously it's not working very well these days as i tend to forget things rather easily..it doesn't matter whether it happens ten seconds, ten minutes or even ten hours ago..i often forget..the other day i left my books on a table and the next moment i was looking really hard for it because i just couldn't remember..then another friend pointed out to me the place where i'd left them..what can i say? alzheimer is already striking me at such a young age..

my eyes are hurting..too much of staring at the screen..books aren't helping..my eyes won't get hurt but they get heavy and sooner or later..........you know what happens when you are reading a history textbook? i need not say it..you already knew the answer..

getting worried..

it's july now..the day is getting nearer..there's only 2 months left for me to prepare for trial exam..today there was a career talk in school and i found it really informative..however, the variety of jobs introduced by the speaker did not interest me..i have my own dream and i will pursue nothing else but it..only that career will make me feel comfortable (i hope)..i am not too sure whether i'll be happy but i know i will try my best in order to achieve this ambition..

now for the time being, i can feel the pressure to study increasing..just like in a pressure cooker..imagine that my life is being cooked..frankly speaking, i am going through a hard time..i am feeling worried but i can't help imagining the future and the picture of failing to get the results i always wanted..

today is open day in school..it was indeed a relief that teacher didn't comment much about me..so the meeting took less than five minutes..anyway, i was just glad that it was over really quick..

sarah..

of course i will write something about you..oh ya, just want to thank you for keeping a copy of the teachers' day pictures for me..i didn't know i have a share too..that's just so sweet of you..thanks a lot! although i only appeared twice in there..anyway sarah, i'm glad to know you as friend and i hope you won't forget me when we leave form 5, okay? let me see what else..i know! she loves the net..i can see that as you online really often..i guess i should interview you for more information..i'll update more about you when i've collected enough..

the ladies..

okay, this is for the both of you..let me start off with..let's say..ale? because her name comes first in alphabetical order (don't be sad, duyun! yours will be somewhere at the bottom.)

Miss Alethea Tang Meiyan
also known as ale for short..what to say about her? she has got a beautiful complexion (don't blush!)..and a charming smile (not charming enough to charm me..hehe..)..and of course..oh ya! how can i forget her brain! well all i can say is that she's smart and brilliant..as she is the president of CF, she plans out things really neat and well-organised..it's also proud for me to say that she can work with other people, like someone as crazy as me..(sorry i couldn't attend full meeting every time)..by the way, are you the consficated items mistress? don't worry ale, i will make your job easy for you because i don't bring unnecessary items (and will never)..is this long enough? there are more than five lines already..glad to be your friend after all these years and i won't forget to say that you are a sweet friend..just like fruitplus..
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Miss DuyunZ Lee
finally it's your turn my dear friend..this girl..i only started knowing her personally last year..my first impression? she is very vain and her beauty will always come first (the proof: the question you always ask me, 'am i prettier today?') you know something..i will always say no just to irritate you..it's just too funny to see her get angry..she looks cute!! believe me..you should try getting on her nerves...well, it depends on her mood actually..if she's in a good one, no matter how hard you try, you can't make her shout at you..but...try doing it when she has her PMS......! you will be DEAD!! she is fun-loving and frustrates the teachers at times..especially puan nalini..as she is the most outspoken person in class, it really enlightens my burden in class when we have group discussions because i don't have to speak..pui yun will do it voluntarily (that's a credit for you!)

guess i have done my duty now..any dissatisfaction just post your comments here and i'll mend it if ONLY it's reasonable..

p/s: i am only stating the fact duyunZ! don't get angry yeah? heh~

especially dedicated to you-pui yee..

she is such a cute and adorable friend of mine..with simple plan in her not so simple mind..(i'm writing all these just because i know that you will be reading this!)..so what else i can say about her?? oh ya, she has a big and brilliant and i-am-not-sure-what brain to think of such a brilliant idea to establish KGML (i only suggested but you are the president so you are the head!)..try guessing what the abbreviation stands for..
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did you manage to find the answer? well, think again..
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it's very simple..the answer is Kesatuan Gossip Mr. Lau!!

that's all for now about pui yee..might write about someone else someday, sometime (if you ask me to)..

another note to pui yee: oh ya, make sure you keep a copy of the newest edition of KGML magazine for me..

hungry..

these holidays are very dull to me..i didn't go anywhere..stuck at home..!! i have unfinished homework but i just can't complete it..it took a great deal of effort just to finish 50% of it..what about the other half?? i'm not sure i can do it today..maybe tomorrow..

currently i am waiting for dinner time with my growling tummy..i have just eaten an apple and that makes me even hungrier..i should have known that apple is a very good appetizer........

the advantages of breast milk..

i received this mail a moment ago and i find it not only funny but educational as well..have fun reading!!

A not necessarily well-prepared student sat in his life science classroom, staring at a question on the final exam paper. The question directed: "Give four advantages of breast milk." What to write? He sighed, and began to scribble whatever came into his head, hoping for the best:

1. No need to boil.
2. Never goes sour.
3. Available whenever necessary.

So far so good - maybe. But the exam demanded a fourth answer. Again, what to write? Once more, he sighed. He frowned. He scowled, then sighed again. Suddenly, he brightened. He grabbed his pen, and triumphantly, he scribbled his definitive answer:

4. Available in attractive containers of varying sizes.

He received an A!

what a brilliant answer!!

rangers' camp 2005!

i came back aching all over but i think it's all worth it as i really did enjoyed myself during the camp..we played loads of games (which i think was a little too many), and all games involved running (the reason i have sore legs) except water games..water games? eew! they played with eggs! (i couldn't stand it so i didn't want to play)..and the amazing race? that's even worse..even chicken fat was involved..yuck! you can imagine how gross the game was if i explain it here..

so here it goes..every patrol will have to go from one station to another to get clues and win the game..so at this particular station, the participants were required to dip their faces into a pail of water (main ingredients-eggs and chicken fat) to grab as many straws as possible and transfer it into another pail..here comes the trick of the game..the participants need to dip their heads really deep into the water to get more straws..some even swallowed a little bit of the content in the pail..it was so revolting and they looked sick! where was i then? well, i was merely a few feet from them, watching..very smart of me, eh?? but i could still smell the chicken fat! yuck!

my fingers are sore..i think it's time for me to take a break now..will have to wait until the blister on my finger to be gone before i start blogging again..

the conversation..

the most meaningful conversation..i learnt a lot about life and how optimistic we must be towards life..never be upset but treasure what you have..life's a trial so we must learn to face the obstacles ahead of us..

God : Hello. Did you call me?

Me: Called you? No. Who is this?

God : This is GOD. I heard your prayers. So I thought I will chat.

Me: I do pray. Just makes me feel good. I am actually busy now. I am in the midst of something.

God : What are you busy at? Ants are busy too.

Me: Don't know. But I can't find free time. Life has become hectic. It's rush hour all the time.
God : Sure. Activity gets you busy. But productivity gets you results. Activity consumes time. Productivity frees it.

Me: I understand. But I still can't figure out. By the way, I was not expecting YOU to buzz me on instant messaging chat.

God : Well I wanted to resolve your fight for time, by giving you some clarity. In this net era, I wanted to reach you through the medium you are comfortable with.

Me: Tell me, why has life become complicated now?

God : Stop analyzing life. Just live it. Analysis is what makes it complicated.

Me: Why are we then constantly unhappy?

God : Your today is the tomorrow that you worried about yesterday. You are worrying because you are analyzing. Worrying has become your habit. That's why you are not happy.

Me: But how can we not worry when there is so much uncertainty?

God : Uncertainty is inevitable, but worrying is optional.

Me: But then, there is so much pain due to uncertainty.

God : Pain is inevitable, but suffering is optional.

Me: If suffering is optional, why do good people always suffer?

God : Diamond cannot be polished without friction. Gold cannot be purified without fire. Good people go through trials, but don't suffer. With that experience their life become better not bitter.

Me: You mean to say such experience is useful?

God : Yes. In every terms, Experience is a hard teacher. She gives the test first and the lessons afterwards.

Me: But still, why should we go through such tests? Why can't we be free from problems?

God : Problems are Purposeful Roadblocks Offering Beneficial Lessons (to)Enhance Mental Strength. Inner strength comes from struggle and endurance, not when you are free from problems.

Me: Frankly in the midst of so many problems, we don't know where we are heading.

God : If you look outside you will not know where you are heading. Look inside. Looking outside, you dream. Looking inside, you awaken. Eyes provide sight. Heart provides insight.

Me: Sometimes not succeeding fast seems to hurt more than moving in the right direction. What should I do?

God : Success is a measure as decided by others. Satisfaction is a measure as decided by you. Knowing the road ahead is more satisfying than knowing you rode ahead. You work with the compass. Let others work with the clock.

Me: In tough times, how do you stay motivated?

God : Always look at how far you have come rather than how far you have to go. Always count your blessing, not what you are missing.

Me: What surprises you about people?

God : When they suffer they ask, "why me?" When they prosper, they never ask "Why me" Everyone wishes to have truth on their side, but few want to be on the side of the truth.

Me: Sometimes I ask, who am I, why am I here. I can't get the answer.

God : Seek not to find who you are, but to determine who you want to be. Stop looking for a purpose as to why you are here. Create it. Life is not a process of discovery but a process of creation.

Me: How can I get the best out of life?

God : Face your past without regret. Handle your present with confidence. Prepare for the future without fear.

Me: One last question. Sometimes I feel my prayers are not answered.

God : There are no unanswered prayers. At times the answer is NO.

Me: Thank you for this wonderful chat.

God : Well. Keep the faith and drop the fear. Don't believe your doubts and doubt your beliefs. Life is a mystery to solve not a problem to resolve. Trust me. Life is wonderful if you know how to live. "Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take but by the moments that took our breath away!"

it's best to forget..

quarrels can be terrible but it gets better when you manage to get it out of your head..just as though nothing had happened the next moment you see that person..well, this was what happened yesterday when we (my sis and i) were preparing for dinner..

"no, you shouldn't cut it that way.."

"let me do it my way, won't you?"

"up to you then.......why did you use the butcher's knife to slice it?"

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i got so angry the next moment that i stormed out of the kitchen after shouting at her-asking her to do the cooking all ALONE!! maybe i was being childish at that time but don't ask me why..i didn't know why i got so upset with her yesterday..maybe i am just too emotional..
anyway, i went into my room, closed the door and turned on the radio at full blast (now i know this is a very effective way to release tension)..however, fifteen minutes later.......

"come down and eat....!"

that was my sister. i came down and can you believe it??? we TALKED!! as if nothing had happened between us..it was like she forgot all about the shouting i did and i answered her..well, you can say, pleasantly..

i'll be going for camp tomorrow so i'll be missing the internet..will only be back on the 2nd june..hope i'll have fun..!!

another burnt day..

i did nothing..all i did was watching tv and visiting my dear internet which i considered as nothing..i know i should be completing my homework now but the temptation is just far too great that i gave in..

the rain's pouring heavily outside now..how i wish i can go out and play..silly me..but i want to get sick!! getting sick means a lot to me..

1. i get to sleep
2. skipping tuition classes
3. dream of beautiful dreams
4. reason to delay my homework and folio
5. sleep...sleep...and SLEEP!!

how wonderful and blissful life can be just by being sick..

exam's over and you know what this means??

SPM's getting nearer....!!!!!!

cool seminar..

it was surprisingly interesting..i didn't regretted going to school sitting there listening for the whole 9 hours! to those who didn't manage to attend last saturday, it was indeed a waste to miss it..i'm currently being an extremely good girl..sleep at 9 pm and wake up at 3 in the morning to kill every subject...i hope i'll manage to keep it that way..at least for these 6 months..

issues..

teachers are so EVIL!! exam's in ten days and yet they still gave loads of homework..i think i am going to be half dead by the time spm comes..a good sign for me, maybe, because i don't have to sit for spm..haha..i'll be stuck in the hospital getting all the best treatment..you might be wondering what sort of hospital i am talking about and i want to assure you that i wasn't referring to the normal, decent hospitals....you know which one i meant now?? hope you do..

i hope the seminar tomorrow won't be boring..i can't stand boredom..all i want now is a good night sleep so i won't be falling asleep tomorrow..oh God, please give me the strength to stay awake right up to the end..i am so hungry despite of the heavy dinner i had just now..i am going to have chocolates or ice-cream right now..

i am back!!

it's been like more than a month i left this poor blog unattended..the fact is, firstly because i was lazy and seriously dry..really had no idea to blog..i don't understand why others take blogging as an easy task..they just had so much to say..ME? maybe i should learn to remember things better so that i wouldn't forget..then maybe i can get to blog something out..

okay, here's something..exam's in two week's time and i haven't started reading a single thing yet..i have only started the few pages of chemistry and it is already driving me crazy..i don't understand why my brain's not working..my brain capasity is running low..need to refuel it as soon as possible or i'll be DOOMED! spm is only 212 days away..more brain cells are dying:[

driving blues..

tomorrow will be my final driving lesson..i hope i can memorise the route and all the guidelines given..i want to pass especially the parking..the test will be on wednesday..two days to go..

holidays??

the holidays are here but i am feeling so stressed out..with folios and homework, i don't think i can enjoy at all!! now i realised that i have coordination problems with my hands and feet..i need to practise to get driving right..or else, i will be scolded by the instructor again tomorrow..you can say i am quite afraid of him..just wish me luck for tomorrow, okay?? i have to go for rangers meeting tomorrow..and i am so sleepy..i don't want to think of waking up early in the morning on a saturday..moreover it's the first day of the holiday..i realise i need extra hours for homework and revision for monthly test in school..i hope i won't do that badly..

the spm result was out yesterday and how i wish i was the one getting the result..then i don't have to worry about having to sit for spm this year..i long to drive desperately..i hope to get my licence sooner..

weird feeling..

i don't know why but i knew i had this weird feeling yesterday..after the dissection of frogs..i felt suffocated..maybe i can say that it was as if i was the one being dissected..anyway, i was just so glad i didn't dream of onggy last night..that was what syaz named the frog..the dead frog..it was funny why i felt that way..the moment i pint it onto the board, the feeling started..i never knew i could have feelings for amphibians..not until yesterday..i didn't tell anyone about this though..they might think me weak..so whoever reads this, please do me a favour..never ever breathe a word..shhh....i want to keep it just here..

today i did my oral..i don't think i did that well..i was TREMBLING!! my knees are shaking and so are my hands..my heart was pumping so hard i was so afraid it might come out..i tried to control but my voice sounded shaky and i knew puan nalini realised that..my marks will definitely go down..

i am right-brained??

i think i am getting interested in all these kind of analysing stuffs..


The Brain Test
What Your Brain Says About How You Think and Learn
Fiona, you are Right-brained

Most right-brained people like you are flexible in many realms of their lives. Whether picking up on the nuances of musical concerto, appreciating the subtle details in a work of art, or seeing the world from a different perspective, right-brained people are creative, imaginative, and attuned to their surroundings. People probably see your thinking process as boundless, and that might translate to your physical surroundings as well. Some people think of you as messier than others. It's not that you're disorganized, it's just that you might use different systems to organize (by theme, by subject, by color). Straight alphabetization and rigidly ordered folders are not typical of right-brained behavior. You are also more intuitive than many. When it comes to reading literature, you probably prefer creative writing or fiction over nonfiction. And when it comes to doing math, you might find you enjoy geometry more than other forms like algebra.

a small celebration..

today is my grandma's birthday..i'm not even sure of her age as she is always saying that she is 65..as far as i am concerned, she has been 65 for so many years..so if you ask me, i am not sure..

we had a little surprise for her..my parents bought her a cake with chocolate cream and white chocolates surrounding it..my mom fried some noodles and and prepared my all-time favourite assam prawns..so yummy!! my grandma didn't expect us to celebrate for her..today, 12 february 2005 will be the most memorable day..she will be going back to kl tomorrow so we will only see her during her next trip here..

my personal astrology profile..

i am not really sure whether this is true or not..

Birth Data for Fiona:
Birth Date and Time..... February 1, 1988 8:16 PM
Birth Location............. Ipoh, Malaysia
Sun Sign.................... Aquarius



Section 1: How You Approach Life and How You Appear To Others
Ferociously proud and somewhat vain, you like to be impressive and to be seen as Somebody Special. You are not timid, meek, or self-effacing, and are rarely content being in the background or in the subordinate position. You are a natural leader, and do not take orders from others very well. You must have something of your own, something creative - be it a business, a project, a home or whatever - that you can develop and manage according to your own will and vision. Whatever you do, you do it in a unique, dramatic, individual way. You like to put your own personal stamp on it. Find out more with your full-length report...

Section 2: The Inner You: Your Real Motivation
You are a freedom-loving, strong-willed, and independent-minded individual, and you insist upon living your own life as you see fit, even if that means ignoring convention and tradition. In personal relationships you cannot be owned or possessed, and while you are willing to share yourself with another, you do not always adjust easily to the emotional give and take of a close relationship. Though intellectually open, you can be enormously stubborn, opinionated, and inflexible on a one-to-one level. You have strong convictions and feelings about fairness and equality, and you try to live by your ideals, but your ideals about how people SHOULD treat one another don't always take into account human weaknesses, differences, and needs. You probably dislike sentimentality and traditional gender roles and "games". Find out more with your full-length report...

chess competition..

at least this time wasn't that bad..i think i should say myself lucky as mostly all of my opponents were not too professional..i played with one guy who had only started playing chess for the past four days..very lucky?? maybe i am..too bad there was no certificates to be given;(

a surprise party..

syaz was up to something..but i did not know what..i tried to make her spill out her plans but failed..she could just keep the secret so well..

so i waited until yesterday evening..i went to jusco and then only i realised that she had planned a small party yet brought so much meaning to me..i have never thought in my entire life that someone would be planning something to celebrate my birthday..the food was great..as you can see the pictures below..the present?? MUCH GREATER!! really feel like giving everyone a suffocating hug but couldn't..at least i get to hug the planner....hahaha...thanks for everything!!

hmm..yummy cake!!

 

pui yun so fascinated with the cake..haha..

bloated...brrrppp!!!!!

cheese!!!!!!!!!!

half-eaten pizzas..yummy....

pui yun loves pizzas!!

a worthwhile visit..

the visit to the salvation army boys home wasn't as i had expected it to be..my earliest opinion was that all the boys there are well-behaved and can be really shy..but..this opinion was shattered when i reached there and started interacting with them..however, not all of them are mischievous as i can see there are yet still some other older boys who truly treated us as guests..

major leong was very friendly and he told us all about the history of the salvation army and the its development so far..

what i actually found out from these boys are that they are not the very fortunate ones as they are either orphans or from broken homes..one of the happiest moments i had there is when i started getting to know them better and had a great fellowship with them while experiencing their speedy meal..they can just eat so FAST..i think it only took them about two minutes to finish a plate of noodles before having a second or third helping..what about the cleaning up?? we helped them for the day but on ordinary days, according to one of the boys, they have to do the cleaning themselves..so i guessed that they were very pleased with our visit there as they can do less work for the day..we snapped loads of pictures for our moral project and how i just wish i can go there again for another visit..

a bigger family..

my mom bought another two turtles..they are rather small and seem fragile..compared to two of mine which has been staying here for four months, they somehow look more yellowish in colour unlike mine when my mom first bought them..they are grey from the beginning and still are..i told my mom that they have jaundice because most babies have that as soon as they are born..maybe baby turtles are the same as human babies..my mom didn't believe me..maybe it's not true..my dad had a different opinion though..he said that as the turtles came from indonesia, maybe they swallowed too much mud due to the tsunami and turned all yellowish upon reaching the shore of singapore before exporting them to malaysia..all together, there are now five turtles in the one and a half feet aquarium..they look so CUTE!! i hope none of them will die so soon...

last entry for this week..

as i can only online on weekends, it's best i post another entry..this is a new curfew..NO internet on weekdays..have to revise for SPM..that's what my mom tells and reminds me constantly..my ears itch every time i hear that..but it's true..SPM is really near and i am getting nervous..intimidating..classes are sure getting tougher..i love my mom so much for caring for me and i mean it..

my stomach is upset..i can't wait for the pain to go off..i know it will..maybe i lack exercise..that's why i am having soreness everywhere..

i know i will begin to hate tuesdays and thursdays now..school ends at 2.30 pm and i have tuition at 4..when am i going to find time to complete my homework?? at night? then i'll miss my tv time..i should remind myself again..cut down on tv..study..study..study..SPM's coming..sometimes it works, you know..when the spiritual self is stronger than the body, it's easier to do anything..just follow your heart..but it's a rare thing when that happens..it's rare to me at least..

i can't wait to drive..if i can get my licence sooner, that will be so cool..let me just dream on until the time comes..

tuition schedule..

my schedule for year 2005..it's quite similar to last year's though..

monday
4.00-5.30 pm - modern mathematics
5.30-7.00 pm - chemistry

tuesday
4.00-5.30 pm - bahasa melayu
5.30-7.00 pm - physics

wednesday
4.00-5.30 pm - accounts
5.30-7.00 pm - history

thursday
4.00-5.30 pm - biology
5.30-7.00 pm - additional mathematics

friday
4.00-5.30 pm - english


i guess it's not tight compared to my other friends..tell me what you think..

this one is especially dedicated to miss ale..

sunday
3.00-500 pm - all sorts of classes..

the first week of school..

well, school has started and my homework is already piling up!! puan nalini gave us essay on the first day of school..how cruel..anyway, i won't blame her..as she had said, "you have been resting since the holidays..now it's time to put on the FULL GEAR!!"..she was so excited and enthusiastic..as if she will be sitting for spm, not us..i am currently doing a countdown..not for new year but for spm..305 days to go..

dull..

my stomach's growling and it's only 5.20 pm..guess i have to wait for another hour or two to have my dinner..time is moving so slowly when i desperately wanted it to be speedy..

it's over..

it has come to an end for the year..i just can't wait for another year to celebrate it again..well, i can do absolutely nothing about it..forced to wait till next year..after spm..how i wish i can have christmas every day..then i no longer have to worry and lament over it when it is nearing 12 midnight of the 26 dec..my joy for the day had come to an end..now i have to face the reality that a new year is awaiting right ahead of me..in exactly a week's time..i want to go and watch a movie before school reopens..but i am scared..i don't know why..scared of everything..i just can't bear to see the time slipping away when i am doing nothing beneficial..duyun, i told you i can't keep it long..just can't find the mood to write a lot..so this is it..my short entry for today..

unprepared..

school will reopen pretty soon and i am not even sure of the exact date..is it on the 3rd or 4th jan? i mean i am excited to to go back to school to meet my friends, but to study.....i don't think i am prepared to face homeworks and all..holidays after all are still spoiling me, i guess..how i wish i can control the speed of time..the cruel and unforgiving time..then, i will have no more regrets..

back from my holidays..

finally..back to my beloved hometown after my six days in kl..what a great relief to be back here!! i didn't really have a wonderful time there as i was sick..really, really sick..i threw up four times on the 14 dec..horrible..really sickening..i was so glad to be okay again the next day..however i still had low appetite..anyway, it was a pleasant trip..so sorry duyun..couldn't get you your hp..i'll try getting it the next time..;)

boredom..

no happenings..nothing to keep myself busy (of course i am just finding an excuse for not revising..) maybe i should start studying..but you know how things get when you don't have the mood to do it..i just laze around..not even touching my books..the idiot box is always in front of me..i am wondering..what is going to happening to me..sigh..i hope things will get better soon..can't wait for christmas..at least the festival can heat things up a bit, i hope..

lazy..

i know i haven't been blogging often now..so here it is..i am feeling really guilty these days..why? i haven't been revising!! i always said to myself that i will do it tomorrow..tomorrow..but the tomorrow never comes..sigh..however, i will try my very best to overcome this laziness..so here i come add maths!!

back from cameron..

it can be really fun if i wasn't sick..i was sneezing and feeling nauseatic at the same time throughout the whole trip..maybe it was due to the hectic week i had..i just had not enough rest..in fact, i never had enough in my entire life..lolz..anyway, it was a good trip and i ate lots of dried strawberries..how i wish i could eat it in ipoh everyday!! it's so delicious..i couldn't really enjoy the cool air as i had my jacket on almost all the time..currently, i am looking forward to my next journey to the north....penang!! finally i can get to taste my favourite laksa again..yay!!

tired..

today was a very busy day..yes..not like any other days..guess what am i thinking now?? i don't feel like going for vbs tomorrow..sigh..i think i am going to fall sick..don't know why..maybe i am just plain lazy to do anything at all during the holidays..whenever i try doing something, i just feel it coming..the soreness...the tiredness...aih...

meaningful lyrics..

nice and meaningful lyrics..

You Belong To Me written by Pee Wee King, Redd Stewart Shilton Price

See the pyramids along the Nile
Watch the sunrise on a tropic isle
Just remember, darling all the while
You belong to me

See the market place in old Algiers
Send me photographs and souvenirs
Just remember when a dream appears
You belong to me

I'll be so lonesome without you
Maybe you'll be lonesome too
And blue

Fly the ocean in a silver plane
See the jungle when it's wet with rain
Just remember 'til you're home again
You belong to me

Maybe you'll be lonesome too
And blue

Fly the ocean in a silver plane
See the jungle when it's wet with rain
Just remember 'til you're home again
You belong to me

Maybe you'll be lonesome too
And blue

Fly the ocean in a silver plane
See the jungle when it's wet with rain
Just remember 'til you're home again
You belong to me

From eLyrics4U.com Song Lyrics Search

the most unexpected call..

it was about ten something in the morning when the phone rang..guess who??
you wouldn't have guessed..it was puan nalini..my mom answered the call and woke me up..

"your teacher wants to speak to you,"said my mom.

"who??"

"puan nalini."

i was half awake that time and took the receiver from my mom..

"hello?"

"i'm puan nalini here..just want to inform you that...."

..i was blurred and couldn't really get what she was telling me..

"...the dinner...21st November.."

"what? 31st November, teacher?? is there such a date??"

"no, i said 21st November..you better dig your ears.."

i didn't know why i heard 31st instead of 21st..maybe i was not fully awake yet..then i passed the receiver back to my mom..

"we'll be going to cameron on that day.."said my mom..

the conversation went on..

it just seemed to me that my mom could really chat with puan nalini like an old friend..

i changed my layout again..

well..well..well..this has been the third time i changed my layout..if duyun is going to criticize it again, i will do nothing about it..i'll not change it again..no..never..by the way, i think this one is better than the ones before..so don't try to make me change it again..

last day of school!!

yay..the happiest day of my life in form 4!! there were actually two reasons why this day was a meaningful one..firstly, it was the retirement day of our dear principal (although it was kind of sad because we will not have a principal again for the time being)..secondly, i need not to go to school tomorrow!! i just want to enjoy life during this festive season..i am currently looking forward to eat..eat..and eat!! especially rendang and lemang..wow..they are just so delicious..i better stop now as my stomach is growling louder and louder right now...grrr....grrrrr...

Girls..

this is a list about what girls expect not only guys but everyone to know..have a good one..

51 things about gal that guys should know

1.Don't ever lie to her, she would eventually find out.

2. She doesn't enjoy talking dirty to you as much as you enjoy listening.

3. Don't say you understand when you don't.

4. Girls are petty, get over it.

5. You don't have PMS, don't act like you know what it's like.

6. Saying something sweet might get you off the hook. Doing something sweet will always get you off the hook.

7. If you talk about having a big dick, she knows you don't.

8. Size does matter. But only to thoes not to girls who wants a relationship.

9. She doesn't like it when you act like Mr. Big. But she likes it when you are Mr. Big

10. A system in your car only impresses your home boys.

11. Don't talk about other girls that like you, she doesn't care.

12. It's good to be sensitive, sometimes.

13. If you did something wrong or even if you didn't, apologize.

14. Be spontaneous, dinner and a movie won't always cut it.

15. We are self-conscious by nature, we can't help it.

16. We are drama queens.

17. If it's a date, come with flower and candy

18. Don't ask her to give head, if you are nice you just might get it.

19. We absolutely do not care about monster trucks, car systems, paint ball or anything else you and your friends talk about.

20. Hugs and kisses must be given at all times.

21. She won't shave our legs every day, get over it.

22. Don't make bets about us, we always find out.

23. Shave, no matter how cool you think it looks, she hates it.

24. Even if you think it is cool to burp, fart, or emit other strange gases from your body, it is not.
25. Don't compare our breasts with Pamela Anderson's, hers are fake

26. Don't wear the same clothes two or more days in a row.

27. We are beautiful, but make-up helps.

28. We will always think we are fat so humor us and tell us we aren't.

29. I'm your girlfriend, not your maid.

30. Most importantly. We are always right, so don't forget it

31. Call her the next day after you went out together.

32. Always laugh at her jokes.

33. Tell her (truthfully) that you can't wait to see her again.

34. Call her just to say you were thinking about her.

35. Bring her a teddy bear and chicken soup when she's sick.

36. Write her a poem.

37. Slow dance with her (not only on a dance floor).

38. Bring her flowers for no reason.

39. Send her a (handwritten) letter just to say hello.

40. Always remember your anniversaries and bring her something sweet.

41. Kiss her in the middle of a sentence.

42. Take her for a walk at sunset and stay to look up at the stars.

43. Tell her something about you... that no one else knows.

44. Remind her that you still think she's beautiful.

45. Watch a sappy movie with her.

46. Surprise her with a candlelight dinner.

47. Never stop trying to impress her.

48. Tell her you love her... don't just expect her to know.**

49. Never forget how much she means to you.

50. Give her great big hugs for no reason.

51. You have to tell a girl how you feel about her...we make no assumptions.

i love you??

do you really mean it when you say i love you to somebody??

WHEN U R ONLY 5 YRS OLD, I SAID I LOVE U.. U ASKED ME : "WHAT IS IT?

"WHEN U R 15 YRS OLD, I SAID I LOVE U.. U BLUSHED.. U LOOK DOWN AND SMILE..

WHEN U R 20 YRS OLD, I SAID I LOVE U.. U PUT UR HEAD ON MY SHOULDER AND HOLD MY HAND.. AFRAID THAT I MIGHT DISSAPEAR..

WHEN U R 25 YRS OLD, I SAID I LOVE U.. U PREPARE BREAKFAST AND SERVE IT IN FRONT OF ME, AND KISS MY FORHEAD SAID : "U BETTER BE QUICK, IT'S GONNA BE LATE..

"WHEN U R 30 YRS OLD, I SAID I LOVE U.. U SAID: "IF U REALLY LOVE ME, PLEASE COME BACK EARLY AFTER WORK..

"WHEN U R 40 YRS OLD, I SAID I LOVE U.. U R CLEANING THE DINING TABLE AND SAID:"OK DEAR, BUT IT'S TIME FOR U TO HELP OUR CHILD WITH HIS/HER REVISION..
"WHEN U R 50 YRS OLD, I SAID I LOVE U.. U R KNITTING AND U LAUGH AT ME..

WHEN U R 60 YRS OLD, I SAID I LOVE U.. U SMILE AT ME..

WHEN U R 70 YRS OLD. I SAID I LOVE U..WE SIT ON THE ROCKING CHAIR WITH OUR GLASSES ON.. I'M READING YOUR LOVE LETTER THAT U SENT TO ME 50 YRS AGO.. WITH OUR HAND CROSSING TOGETHER..

WHEN U R 80 YRS OLD, U SAID U LOVE ME! I DIDN'T SAY ANYTHING BUT CRIED.. THAT DAY MUST BE THE HAPPIEST DAY OF MY LIFE! BECAUSE U SAID U LOVE ME!!!PLEASE APPRECIATE YOUR LOVED ONES.. SAY "I LOVE YOU" TO THEM WHEN U HAVE THE CHANCE NOW!![i love you] means i really care of you.. say it out but not to expect the return or anything..[i love you] is because there is a pure thoughts.. that was hoping this magical 3 words can bring you happiness and futurity.. and because of having such pure thoughts.. ppl which have true heart to a person, give out all his courage to say "i love you.."

however, do not say "i love you" if you do not mean it..it will hurt the person very seriously..

take a break..

school actually turns out to be quite a nice place when we do not have to study..it is not that i hate studying, but i just love to have a break from studies..especially from the subject i dislike the most.......history!!! i mean it is okay to learn the subject in school just for extra knowledge, but to have it as an examination subject is truly ridiculous..why would anyone want to know about events which had happened about centuries ago?? let bygones be bygones..we should look forward to the future, not backwards..can you imagine yourself looking at someone walking backwards on the street?? that will be so weird..anyway, the holidays are going to be here really, really soon!! let's do a countdown...two more days to go......

another reminder for pui yun: i still think that the cover of my blog is OKAY!! i won't change it again..NEVER;)..i will only change it on one condition..only if you change yours too..lol...

italian horoscope..

this is something really interesting..hey, people!! i am updating..

Your date describes you! Dear friends. Below, is an Italian horoscope and you can find a lot about youself just by searching your own identity in the Italian way. What you have to do is to find your group with the help of your date of birth. Date of Birth Group
01,06,11,16,21,26,31 - A1
02,07,12,17,22,27 - B2
03,08,13,18,23,28 - C3
04,09,14,19,24,29 - D4
05,10,15,20,25,30 - E5

Group A1
You consider love as the most beautiful thing and you love to fall in love, but a number of your group members think that the person they love is not sincere with them. You love to be with your friends and you are always found to be a dutiful friend. You can hardly control your patients, which is a very big drawback of your nature.
The Person who is ruling your mind & heart these days is perfect for you.

Group B2
Your dreams and ambitions are much important for you and you can do everything to fulfill your dreams. Love is much valuable in your life but you always search for someone perfect. You hardly trust someone. Your friends are really important for you but normally you hide a lot from them. You are a deep thinker you always study the negative view as well as positive. You can lead a happy life with a person for whom you care a lot these days.

Group C3
You always prefer mantel decisions more then emotional ones due to this you don't have a limited number of friends. You consider life a very beautiful gift and you love to enjoy its colors. There are a number of peoples who are your ideals and you loved to spend a big part of your time with them. You are found to be a very sincere lover.. You have a perfect control on your emotions but sometimes your decisions really effect your beloveds. The person who has just appeared in your mind and you has decided to forward this mail especially to him/her is your real and special friend.

Group D4
Your always have goals to achieve and you can do everything to fulfill the dreams of those who loves you. You have a sketch of an ideal in your mind and you always search for that personality. Your friends means a lot to you and you can do everything for the sake of your friend, you a normally found to be an emotional personality. You have a very less control on your patients and due to this sometimes you over react. The one who sent you this mail & the one to whom you will send this mail first are your real friends.

Group E5
You are found to be a person who loves to love. You prefer emotional decision more then mantel decisions. You consider life just to enjoy; you are the one who is perfect to call FLURTIES. You love to increase the list of your friends and beloved.. You have a number of dreams but you never work hard to make your dreams come true which is the biggest drawback in your nature you take everything much lightly.

give me comments about whether this really work for you people out there, okay?

is it faith or mere stupidity??

how faithful girls can be towards their loved one..

Guys drink to forget about the girl...
Girls drink to think back about that guy...
When guys are in love, they become poorer
But when girls are in love, they become prettier
Guys can forget, but cannot forgive...
Girls can forgive, but cannot forget..
Guys care most about the quantity of love...
But girls care most about the quality of love..
Guys break-up when they feel love from another Girl...
Girls break-up when they feel Separation from her man...
Guys feels curious towards all girls...
Girls feel curious towards the guys who are Interested in her..
When guys are heartbroken,
they try to forget the girl by going out with other girls..
When girls are heartbroken,
they try to find his Characteristics from other guys...
Guys wishes to be her first love....
And girls wishes to be his last love...

my opinion?? i don't know..this depends on individuals..we might think it's stupid to be so faithful to someone whom we know will not be loyal to us..but then, as i said earlier, we cannot judge because different people have different views..

bored..

yeah..that's the heading for today..i really felt bored today..in school and also at home..at least it wasn't that bad at home because i got to sleep like a pig..lol..i just love sleeping..don't know why..i did nothing much in school today..all i did was chatting and playing board games which had turned out to be really "bored" now..sigh..i hope that tomorrow will be a better day for me..i want to go window shopping!! i can't say only shopping because i don't have money to spend..i mean, i do have some money but don't feel like spending the money..i want to keep them to buy something else..maybe something really useful..i just feel like watching exorcist right now but i don't have the vcd..too bad..maybe i should just continue sleeping until morning..yawn...

a bad ending..

i really regretted watching the taiwanese show-sunflower!! it had a bad ending..in fact, no ending at all i should say..what i expected was a happy one where nobody died and they live happily ever after although i know it won't be realistic if it was too happy..anyway, what is the point of directing a show which does not interest the viewers?? the ending was hanging and i was expecting another episode tomorrow but when i look through the channel guide, there will be a new show starting tomorrow!! what happened to the heroine?? did she died?? just want to inform you people out there that if any of you understood the ending of "sunflower", please tell me, okay?? that will be very much appreciated..;)

well..this is to pui yun..i changed the template..are you happy now?? it's no longer pink in colour but mostly white now..lol..

be thankful..

this is one interesting poem which can make us ponder..

Prayer is one of the best free gifts we receive.
I asked God for water, He gave me an ocean.
I asked God for a flower, He gave me a garden.
I asked God for a friend, He gave me all of YOU...
If God brings you to it, He will bring you through it.
Happy moments, praise God.
Difficult moments, seek God.
Quiet moments, worship God.
Painful moments, trust God.
Every moment, thank God.
so...b haPpy 4 waT u'v E got...

sometimes we just take things for granted and do not appreciate them until they are really gone..only then we start to regret and blame God for all that had happened without realising that it is us who cause all the pain and sufferings to be within us..so, thank God for everything because He has a plan for each one of us in our lives!!

finally..

phew..finally i have finished my craft sample for vbs which i have been dreading to do since i got it a few weeks ago..alethea told me she hasn't completed hers..it took me about two whole hours to paint the styrofoam before laying all the details on it..it was tremendous hard work..i really have to thank my neighbour who is a specialist in art for helping me out (although i know she won't be reading this..)..anyway thanks a bunch!! my mother did hers too and it was splendid..you should see how the deepest part of the ocean looks like according to our own imagination..there are little humans and shells with pearls in it which is far too big..as for the sizes of the fishes, they are all out of proportion..the star fish is the same size as the clown fish and the sea horse is bigger than the hammerhead..however, they look quite all right on the styrofoam..who cares about the sizes anyway?? it is only a sample for craft..logic won't be needed here..too much logic will bore the kids to death and no one will want to join vbs in the coming years!! so, i think this will be just fine for the kids..no one will question about the existence of humans living under the sea because it is still a mystery even to the greatest scientists of all time..who knows there might be homosapiens surviving peacefully in the deepest part of the ocean where no one will dare to venture to even till their very last breath??