dull..

my stomach's growling and it's only 5.20 pm..guess i have to wait for another hour or two to have my dinner..time is moving so slowly when i desperately wanted it to be speedy..

it's over..

it has come to an end for the year..i just can't wait for another year to celebrate it again..well, i can do absolutely nothing about it..forced to wait till next year..after spm..how i wish i can have christmas every day..then i no longer have to worry and lament over it when it is nearing 12 midnight of the 26 dec..my joy for the day had come to an end..now i have to face the reality that a new year is awaiting right ahead of me..in exactly a week's time..i want to go and watch a movie before school reopens..but i am scared..i don't know why..scared of everything..i just can't bear to see the time slipping away when i am doing nothing beneficial..duyun, i told you i can't keep it long..just can't find the mood to write a lot..so this is it..my short entry for today..

unprepared..

school will reopen pretty soon and i am not even sure of the exact date..is it on the 3rd or 4th jan? i mean i am excited to to go back to school to meet my friends, but to study.....i don't think i am prepared to face homeworks and all..holidays after all are still spoiling me, i guess..how i wish i can control the speed of time..the cruel and unforgiving time..then, i will have no more regrets..

back from my holidays..

finally..back to my beloved hometown after my six days in kl..what a great relief to be back here!! i didn't really have a wonderful time there as i was sick..really, really sick..i threw up four times on the 14 dec..horrible..really sickening..i was so glad to be okay again the next day..however i still had low appetite..anyway, it was a pleasant trip..so sorry duyun..couldn't get you your hp..i'll try getting it the next time..;)

boredom..

no happenings..nothing to keep myself busy (of course i am just finding an excuse for not revising..) maybe i should start studying..but you know how things get when you don't have the mood to do it..i just laze around..not even touching my books..the idiot box is always in front of me..i am wondering..what is going to happening to me..sigh..i hope things will get better soon..can't wait for christmas..at least the festival can heat things up a bit, i hope..

lazy..

i know i haven't been blogging often now..so here it is..i am feeling really guilty these days..why? i haven't been revising!! i always said to myself that i will do it tomorrow..tomorrow..but the tomorrow never comes..sigh..however, i will try my very best to overcome this laziness..so here i come add maths!!

back from cameron..

it can be really fun if i wasn't sick..i was sneezing and feeling nauseatic at the same time throughout the whole trip..maybe it was due to the hectic week i had..i just had not enough rest..in fact, i never had enough in my entire life..lolz..anyway, it was a good trip and i ate lots of dried strawberries..how i wish i could eat it in ipoh everyday!! it's so delicious..i couldn't really enjoy the cool air as i had my jacket on almost all the time..currently, i am looking forward to my next journey to the north....penang!! finally i can get to taste my favourite laksa again..yay!!

tired..

today was a very busy day..yes..not like any other days..guess what am i thinking now?? i don't feel like going for vbs tomorrow..sigh..i think i am going to fall sick..don't know why..maybe i am just plain lazy to do anything at all during the holidays..whenever i try doing something, i just feel it coming..the soreness...the tiredness...aih...

meaningful lyrics..

nice and meaningful lyrics..

You Belong To Me written by Pee Wee King, Redd Stewart Shilton Price

See the pyramids along the Nile
Watch the sunrise on a tropic isle
Just remember, darling all the while
You belong to me

See the market place in old Algiers
Send me photographs and souvenirs
Just remember when a dream appears
You belong to me

I'll be so lonesome without you
Maybe you'll be lonesome too
And blue

Fly the ocean in a silver plane
See the jungle when it's wet with rain
Just remember 'til you're home again
You belong to me

Maybe you'll be lonesome too
And blue

Fly the ocean in a silver plane
See the jungle when it's wet with rain
Just remember 'til you're home again
You belong to me

Maybe you'll be lonesome too
And blue

Fly the ocean in a silver plane
See the jungle when it's wet with rain
Just remember 'til you're home again
You belong to me

From eLyrics4U.com Song Lyrics Search

the most unexpected call..

it was about ten something in the morning when the phone rang..guess who??
you wouldn't have guessed..it was puan nalini..my mom answered the call and woke me up..

"your teacher wants to speak to you,"said my mom.

"who??"

"puan nalini."

i was half awake that time and took the receiver from my mom..

"hello?"

"i'm puan nalini here..just want to inform you that...."

..i was blurred and couldn't really get what she was telling me..

"...the dinner...21st November.."

"what? 31st November, teacher?? is there such a date??"

"no, i said 21st November..you better dig your ears.."

i didn't know why i heard 31st instead of 21st..maybe i was not fully awake yet..then i passed the receiver back to my mom..

"we'll be going to cameron on that day.."said my mom..

the conversation went on..

it just seemed to me that my mom could really chat with puan nalini like an old friend..

i changed my layout again..

well..well..well..this has been the third time i changed my layout..if duyun is going to criticize it again, i will do nothing about it..i'll not change it again..no..never..by the way, i think this one is better than the ones before..so don't try to make me change it again..

last day of school!!

yay..the happiest day of my life in form 4!! there were actually two reasons why this day was a meaningful one..firstly, it was the retirement day of our dear principal (although it was kind of sad because we will not have a principal again for the time being)..secondly, i need not to go to school tomorrow!! i just want to enjoy life during this festive season..i am currently looking forward to eat..eat..and eat!! especially rendang and lemang..wow..they are just so delicious..i better stop now as my stomach is growling louder and louder right now...grrr....grrrrr...

Girls..

this is a list about what girls expect not only guys but everyone to know..have a good one..

51 things about gal that guys should know

1.Don't ever lie to her, she would eventually find out.

2. She doesn't enjoy talking dirty to you as much as you enjoy listening.

3. Don't say you understand when you don't.

4. Girls are petty, get over it.

5. You don't have PMS, don't act like you know what it's like.

6. Saying something sweet might get you off the hook. Doing something sweet will always get you off the hook.

7. If you talk about having a big dick, she knows you don't.

8. Size does matter. But only to thoes not to girls who wants a relationship.

9. She doesn't like it when you act like Mr. Big. But she likes it when you are Mr. Big

10. A system in your car only impresses your home boys.

11. Don't talk about other girls that like you, she doesn't care.

12. It's good to be sensitive, sometimes.

13. If you did something wrong or even if you didn't, apologize.

14. Be spontaneous, dinner and a movie won't always cut it.

15. We are self-conscious by nature, we can't help it.

16. We are drama queens.

17. If it's a date, come with flower and candy

18. Don't ask her to give head, if you are nice you just might get it.

19. We absolutely do not care about monster trucks, car systems, paint ball or anything else you and your friends talk about.

20. Hugs and kisses must be given at all times.

21. She won't shave our legs every day, get over it.

22. Don't make bets about us, we always find out.

23. Shave, no matter how cool you think it looks, she hates it.

24. Even if you think it is cool to burp, fart, or emit other strange gases from your body, it is not.
25. Don't compare our breasts with Pamela Anderson's, hers are fake

26. Don't wear the same clothes two or more days in a row.

27. We are beautiful, but make-up helps.

28. We will always think we are fat so humor us and tell us we aren't.

29. I'm your girlfriend, not your maid.

30. Most importantly. We are always right, so don't forget it

31. Call her the next day after you went out together.

32. Always laugh at her jokes.

33. Tell her (truthfully) that you can't wait to see her again.

34. Call her just to say you were thinking about her.

35. Bring her a teddy bear and chicken soup when she's sick.

36. Write her a poem.

37. Slow dance with her (not only on a dance floor).

38. Bring her flowers for no reason.

39. Send her a (handwritten) letter just to say hello.

40. Always remember your anniversaries and bring her something sweet.

41. Kiss her in the middle of a sentence.

42. Take her for a walk at sunset and stay to look up at the stars.

43. Tell her something about you... that no one else knows.

44. Remind her that you still think she's beautiful.

45. Watch a sappy movie with her.

46. Surprise her with a candlelight dinner.

47. Never stop trying to impress her.

48. Tell her you love her... don't just expect her to know.**

49. Never forget how much she means to you.

50. Give her great big hugs for no reason.

51. You have to tell a girl how you feel about her...we make no assumptions.

i love you??

do you really mean it when you say i love you to somebody??

WHEN U R ONLY 5 YRS OLD, I SAID I LOVE U.. U ASKED ME : "WHAT IS IT?

"WHEN U R 15 YRS OLD, I SAID I LOVE U.. U BLUSHED.. U LOOK DOWN AND SMILE..

WHEN U R 20 YRS OLD, I SAID I LOVE U.. U PUT UR HEAD ON MY SHOULDER AND HOLD MY HAND.. AFRAID THAT I MIGHT DISSAPEAR..

WHEN U R 25 YRS OLD, I SAID I LOVE U.. U PREPARE BREAKFAST AND SERVE IT IN FRONT OF ME, AND KISS MY FORHEAD SAID : "U BETTER BE QUICK, IT'S GONNA BE LATE..

"WHEN U R 30 YRS OLD, I SAID I LOVE U.. U SAID: "IF U REALLY LOVE ME, PLEASE COME BACK EARLY AFTER WORK..

"WHEN U R 40 YRS OLD, I SAID I LOVE U.. U R CLEANING THE DINING TABLE AND SAID:"OK DEAR, BUT IT'S TIME FOR U TO HELP OUR CHILD WITH HIS/HER REVISION..
"WHEN U R 50 YRS OLD, I SAID I LOVE U.. U R KNITTING AND U LAUGH AT ME..

WHEN U R 60 YRS OLD, I SAID I LOVE U.. U SMILE AT ME..

WHEN U R 70 YRS OLD. I SAID I LOVE U..WE SIT ON THE ROCKING CHAIR WITH OUR GLASSES ON.. I'M READING YOUR LOVE LETTER THAT U SENT TO ME 50 YRS AGO.. WITH OUR HAND CROSSING TOGETHER..

WHEN U R 80 YRS OLD, U SAID U LOVE ME! I DIDN'T SAY ANYTHING BUT CRIED.. THAT DAY MUST BE THE HAPPIEST DAY OF MY LIFE! BECAUSE U SAID U LOVE ME!!!PLEASE APPRECIATE YOUR LOVED ONES.. SAY "I LOVE YOU" TO THEM WHEN U HAVE THE CHANCE NOW!![i love you] means i really care of you.. say it out but not to expect the return or anything..[i love you] is because there is a pure thoughts.. that was hoping this magical 3 words can bring you happiness and futurity.. and because of having such pure thoughts.. ppl which have true heart to a person, give out all his courage to say "i love you.."

however, do not say "i love you" if you do not mean it..it will hurt the person very seriously..

take a break..

school actually turns out to be quite a nice place when we do not have to study..it is not that i hate studying, but i just love to have a break from studies..especially from the subject i dislike the most.......history!!! i mean it is okay to learn the subject in school just for extra knowledge, but to have it as an examination subject is truly ridiculous..why would anyone want to know about events which had happened about centuries ago?? let bygones be bygones..we should look forward to the future, not backwards..can you imagine yourself looking at someone walking backwards on the street?? that will be so weird..anyway, the holidays are going to be here really, really soon!! let's do a countdown...two more days to go......

another reminder for pui yun: i still think that the cover of my blog is OKAY!! i won't change it again..NEVER;)..i will only change it on one condition..only if you change yours too..lol...

italian horoscope..

this is something really interesting..hey, people!! i am updating..

Your date describes you! Dear friends. Below, is an Italian horoscope and you can find a lot about youself just by searching your own identity in the Italian way. What you have to do is to find your group with the help of your date of birth. Date of Birth Group
01,06,11,16,21,26,31 - A1
02,07,12,17,22,27 - B2
03,08,13,18,23,28 - C3
04,09,14,19,24,29 - D4
05,10,15,20,25,30 - E5

Group A1
You consider love as the most beautiful thing and you love to fall in love, but a number of your group members think that the person they love is not sincere with them. You love to be with your friends and you are always found to be a dutiful friend. You can hardly control your patients, which is a very big drawback of your nature.
The Person who is ruling your mind & heart these days is perfect for you.

Group B2
Your dreams and ambitions are much important for you and you can do everything to fulfill your dreams. Love is much valuable in your life but you always search for someone perfect. You hardly trust someone. Your friends are really important for you but normally you hide a lot from them. You are a deep thinker you always study the negative view as well as positive. You can lead a happy life with a person for whom you care a lot these days.

Group C3
You always prefer mantel decisions more then emotional ones due to this you don't have a limited number of friends. You consider life a very beautiful gift and you love to enjoy its colors. There are a number of peoples who are your ideals and you loved to spend a big part of your time with them. You are found to be a very sincere lover.. You have a perfect control on your emotions but sometimes your decisions really effect your beloveds. The person who has just appeared in your mind and you has decided to forward this mail especially to him/her is your real and special friend.

Group D4
Your always have goals to achieve and you can do everything to fulfill the dreams of those who loves you. You have a sketch of an ideal in your mind and you always search for that personality. Your friends means a lot to you and you can do everything for the sake of your friend, you a normally found to be an emotional personality. You have a very less control on your patients and due to this sometimes you over react. The one who sent you this mail & the one to whom you will send this mail first are your real friends.

Group E5
You are found to be a person who loves to love. You prefer emotional decision more then mantel decisions. You consider life just to enjoy; you are the one who is perfect to call FLURTIES. You love to increase the list of your friends and beloved.. You have a number of dreams but you never work hard to make your dreams come true which is the biggest drawback in your nature you take everything much lightly.

give me comments about whether this really work for you people out there, okay?

is it faith or mere stupidity??

how faithful girls can be towards their loved one..

Guys drink to forget about the girl...
Girls drink to think back about that guy...
When guys are in love, they become poorer
But when girls are in love, they become prettier
Guys can forget, but cannot forgive...
Girls can forgive, but cannot forget..
Guys care most about the quantity of love...
But girls care most about the quality of love..
Guys break-up when they feel love from another Girl...
Girls break-up when they feel Separation from her man...
Guys feels curious towards all girls...
Girls feel curious towards the guys who are Interested in her..
When guys are heartbroken,
they try to forget the girl by going out with other girls..
When girls are heartbroken,
they try to find his Characteristics from other guys...
Guys wishes to be her first love....
And girls wishes to be his last love...

my opinion?? i don't know..this depends on individuals..we might think it's stupid to be so faithful to someone whom we know will not be loyal to us..but then, as i said earlier, we cannot judge because different people have different views..

bored..

yeah..that's the heading for today..i really felt bored today..in school and also at home..at least it wasn't that bad at home because i got to sleep like a pig..lol..i just love sleeping..don't know why..i did nothing much in school today..all i did was chatting and playing board games which had turned out to be really "bored" now..sigh..i hope that tomorrow will be a better day for me..i want to go window shopping!! i can't say only shopping because i don't have money to spend..i mean, i do have some money but don't feel like spending the money..i want to keep them to buy something else..maybe something really useful..i just feel like watching exorcist right now but i don't have the vcd..too bad..maybe i should just continue sleeping until morning..yawn...

a bad ending..

i really regretted watching the taiwanese show-sunflower!! it had a bad ending..in fact, no ending at all i should say..what i expected was a happy one where nobody died and they live happily ever after although i know it won't be realistic if it was too happy..anyway, what is the point of directing a show which does not interest the viewers?? the ending was hanging and i was expecting another episode tomorrow but when i look through the channel guide, there will be a new show starting tomorrow!! what happened to the heroine?? did she died?? just want to inform you people out there that if any of you understood the ending of "sunflower", please tell me, okay?? that will be very much appreciated..;)

well..this is to pui yun..i changed the template..are you happy now?? it's no longer pink in colour but mostly white now..lol..

be thankful..

this is one interesting poem which can make us ponder..

Prayer is one of the best free gifts we receive.
I asked God for water, He gave me an ocean.
I asked God for a flower, He gave me a garden.
I asked God for a friend, He gave me all of YOU...
If God brings you to it, He will bring you through it.
Happy moments, praise God.
Difficult moments, seek God.
Quiet moments, worship God.
Painful moments, trust God.
Every moment, thank God.
so...b haPpy 4 waT u'v E got...

sometimes we just take things for granted and do not appreciate them until they are really gone..only then we start to regret and blame God for all that had happened without realising that it is us who cause all the pain and sufferings to be within us..so, thank God for everything because He has a plan for each one of us in our lives!!

finally..

phew..finally i have finished my craft sample for vbs which i have been dreading to do since i got it a few weeks ago..alethea told me she hasn't completed hers..it took me about two whole hours to paint the styrofoam before laying all the details on it..it was tremendous hard work..i really have to thank my neighbour who is a specialist in art for helping me out (although i know she won't be reading this..)..anyway thanks a bunch!! my mother did hers too and it was splendid..you should see how the deepest part of the ocean looks like according to our own imagination..there are little humans and shells with pearls in it which is far too big..as for the sizes of the fishes, they are all out of proportion..the star fish is the same size as the clown fish and the sea horse is bigger than the hammerhead..however, they look quite all right on the styrofoam..who cares about the sizes anyway?? it is only a sample for craft..logic won't be needed here..too much logic will bore the kids to death and no one will want to join vbs in the coming years!! so, i think this will be just fine for the kids..no one will question about the existence of humans living under the sea because it is still a mystery even to the greatest scientists of all time..who knows there might be homosapiens surviving peacefully in the deepest part of the ocean where no one will dare to venture to even till their very last breath??

paranoid..

here is something that caught my attention when i was checking my mails..

A friend always sees the best in you,
Although they've known you at your worst.
They laugh with you in the good times,
When storms threaten, they'll be there first.
They'll offer a shoulder to rest your head
When tears are welling in your eyes.
Take a walk down friendship's path with you
And help chase away those stormy skies.

i don't know why these words really had a deep impact on me when i started to read it..maybe i am just being paranoid to lose a friend whom i thought our friendship will last for a long time..it's scary..i don't like that kind of feeling..it makes me worry and darkens my mood each time i think about it..it can even make my tears roll down even when i try not to cry..i'll still hang on..i must be tough..i clearly knew that..

no happenings..

nothing much happened today..not a busy day because i can afford to sleep all afternoon..it was just so nice being able to laze around at home doing nothing..this is how life should be!! in our own comfort zone..can you imagine, just like living in a world filled with fantasy and no worries at all because all we need to do is live happily ever after..like a fairytale..

it was kind of bored today as i did not dream when i took my nap..it showed that nothing really interest me today..normally i will dream about events if i take my afternoon naps on interesting days..thanks to someone who helped to enlighten my boredom..pui yun!!she kept on giving me missed calls..even when i was in dreamland (of course she didn't know that..)..luckily i am someone who is not alert and not easily disturbed by the ring..otherwise..she will be in deep trouble!! i will just ring her up and scold her for waking me up..lol..i won't do that of course..i am pretty good-natured..what i did was, i replied her missed calls by doing the same to her..but i think she gave up in the end because she did not reply back at last..haha...

however..sad events do happen on such boring day like this..my discus fish died..died under the merciless sun..you can even say it was roasted to death..well, how it happened?? some of my goldfish were seriously ill and the unknown disease also known as the "penyakit selaput mata" which name was invented by my mother was transmitted to the "late discus"..so, my mother transfered the sick fishes to another container with all the medication needed in it to cure them and put them under the sun..we didn't know that discus could not stand the hot sun because it was moving actively in the container when it was exposed to the direct sunlight in the balcony..we thought it was happy being able to see the sunlight..actually the fact was that..it was struggling to get rid of the heat (we didn't know it until it died..)..so sad..fortunately the rest of the fishes survived and they are now back in the aquarium..but i still feel the loss of the discus as it was getting friendlier to us now compared to the very first time we bought it when all it did was to hide at the corner of the aquarium..i can't regret now because it is gone..i just hope that it is resting peacefully up there with the Mighty One..

two more weeks to the holidays!!

the holidays are finally going to be here soon..finally (i stress on the word FINALLY) i'll be getting about two months of break after ten whole months of strenous and braincracking moments to catch up with my lessons in school..sigh..i still have to face spm though..only about a year more to the disastrous day..sniff..sniff..minus the holidays..i have barely a year!! holidays in 2004 are not so nice after all..i still have to crack my poor brain to revise..aih..so this is what i am going to do..november..enjoy life to the fullest!!december..time to strive hard!!;(

getting started..

i don't know why i started this blog..maybe this is just how life goes..it started off with my friend who asked me to post a comment for her post but her blog disallow anonymous comments!! thanks to her..i now started one of my own..anyway, i think i will be a real passive blogger here..i'll just post if only i feel like it..