paranoid..

here is something that caught my attention when i was checking my mails..

A friend always sees the best in you,
Although they've known you at your worst.
They laugh with you in the good times,
When storms threaten, they'll be there first.
They'll offer a shoulder to rest your head
When tears are welling in your eyes.
Take a walk down friendship's path with you
And help chase away those stormy skies.

i don't know why these words really had a deep impact on me when i started to read it..maybe i am just being paranoid to lose a friend whom i thought our friendship will last for a long time..it's scary..i don't like that kind of feeling..it makes me worry and darkens my mood each time i think about it..it can even make my tears roll down even when i try not to cry..i'll still hang on..i must be tough..i clearly knew that..

no happenings..

nothing much happened today..not a busy day because i can afford to sleep all afternoon..it was just so nice being able to laze around at home doing nothing..this is how life should be!! in our own comfort zone..can you imagine, just like living in a world filled with fantasy and no worries at all because all we need to do is live happily ever after..like a fairytale..

it was kind of bored today as i did not dream when i took my nap..it showed that nothing really interest me today..normally i will dream about events if i take my afternoon naps on interesting days..thanks to someone who helped to enlighten my boredom..pui yun!!she kept on giving me missed calls..even when i was in dreamland (of course she didn't know that..)..luckily i am someone who is not alert and not easily disturbed by the ring..otherwise..she will be in deep trouble!! i will just ring her up and scold her for waking me up..lol..i won't do that of course..i am pretty good-natured..what i did was, i replied her missed calls by doing the same to her..but i think she gave up in the end because she did not reply back at last..haha...

however..sad events do happen on such boring day like this..my discus fish died..died under the merciless sun..you can even say it was roasted to death..well, how it happened?? some of my goldfish were seriously ill and the unknown disease also known as the "penyakit selaput mata" which name was invented by my mother was transmitted to the "late discus"..so, my mother transfered the sick fishes to another container with all the medication needed in it to cure them and put them under the sun..we didn't know that discus could not stand the hot sun because it was moving actively in the container when it was exposed to the direct sunlight in the balcony..we thought it was happy being able to see the sunlight..actually the fact was that..it was struggling to get rid of the heat (we didn't know it until it died..)..so sad..fortunately the rest of the fishes survived and they are now back in the aquarium..but i still feel the loss of the discus as it was getting friendlier to us now compared to the very first time we bought it when all it did was to hide at the corner of the aquarium..i can't regret now because it is gone..i just hope that it is resting peacefully up there with the Mighty One..

two more weeks to the holidays!!

the holidays are finally going to be here soon..finally (i stress on the word FINALLY) i'll be getting about two months of break after ten whole months of strenous and braincracking moments to catch up with my lessons in school..sigh..i still have to face spm though..only about a year more to the disastrous day..sniff..sniff..minus the holidays..i have barely a year!! holidays in 2004 are not so nice after all..i still have to crack my poor brain to revise..aih..so this is what i am going to do..november..enjoy life to the fullest!!december..time to strive hard!!;(

getting started..

i don't know why i started this blog..maybe this is just how life goes..it started off with my friend who asked me to post a comment for her post but her blog disallow anonymous comments!! thanks to her..i now started one of my own..anyway, i think i will be a real passive blogger here..i'll just post if only i feel like it..